More Rambles

Even though school doesn't end for another two months, it really feels as though everything is winding down.

My history teacher gave us our last syllabus... our next unit in Biology is our last...

and, as much as I am joyful at the prospect of beginning college, I'm sad. High School has been hard and oftentimes stressful beyond belief, but it's been home. And now I'm going to be leaving.

And, about a week or so after my last day is my graduation. I'll walk up on stage in front of hundreds of people to get a slip of paper that acknowledges my lack of failure, and then I'll sit back down. And it will all be over. Holy moly.

And then it will be summer, filled with traveling, being a counselor, ukulele, iced tea, reading, hanging out with friends before we all depart for college, and relaxing. And more reading.

The aspect of college that stresses me out most is honestly what books I'm going to bring. Because I have hundreds and I can most likely only bring twenty or fewer. Eep.

I don't have the classic "senioritis", and I don't think I'll get it. However, on warm days (such as today), I really want to sit and drink iced tea and read, and not have to worry. Alas, I do still worry. College acceptances/rejections, schoolwork, exercise, what to read next... worryworryworry.

I crave good music. I want to travel to foreign countries. I want to have more time for my ukulele. I want to write more for fun.  I want to read all the Nancy Drew stories (classic) that I have not yet read. I want to write my paper analyzing Buffy and I want to start more. I want to be vegan. I want to walk around the city. I want to be fluent in French and three more languages. I want to dye my hair a slightly lighter shade of brown. Or maybe a deep red. I want to learn ballroom dancing. I want to learn ASL.

I want to study linguistics in my spare time (hah, what spare time?), I want to read up more on gender studies, and I need to learn more about psychology. I hope that I can work in my college's library. Books are wonderful companions and I get lost in them.

I'm very tired, so I'm going to go to sleep now.