Moments

Not often, but every now and then I have moments when I think "Wow, life's pretty good after all".

Granted, these are somewhat rare, as I spend much of my time at least a bit stressed out. But now that I'm well on my way to being almost done with college applications, I'm happy. After December 1st, I will be able to breathe! I mean, I will still have piles upon piles of work to do, but I will only have school work, rather than having all the college work.

But back to those moments. Even though they are just moments, sometimes extremely fleeting, they are there. They do exist, and I feel like a very important thing in my life is to remember that in times of despair. For example, this upcoming week I have many things that I need to get done, and I just want to scream into a pillow right now. I need an actual time-turner to get everything done that I have to do. I have a crazy amount of things to do, and I'm going to have to do all of them because of obligations. I may want to sit in my bed and read Frankenstein and drink tea, but I can't.

I have to write an essay for this contest type thing, I have to go to a student advisory committee meeting, I have to go to another meeting for my school's Literary Magazine, I have to do college applications, I have to exercise, I have to do homework, I have to study. I have to, have to, have to. So I'll breathe and remind myself that everything will be alright. When I'm up at 11:30pm, weary and worn out I'll stand up, walk around my room, and meditate. Because I'll get through all of this. I have to, and I will.

I'll do it for the sake of those moments when everything seems wonderful.